Just because I wrote about you, doesn’t mean I don’t care. I didn’t set out to hurt or humiliate or lie. It’s my way of coping. It’s my way of writing my way through this crazy little thing called love. It will break you if you let it and so, I try to stay occupied and running (not literally. eww.). Running from you, the life you’ve built, and the glimpse of a fantasy that I could ever be a real part of it. I know my story contains details you’d prefer to omit and perspectives you’ll never understand. There’s feelings I’ve never portrayed, emotions you’ve never seen, and hesitancies I never inferred. Why? Because our time would have been spoiled; the sooner you saw that, the faster you’d leave. I’m sorry we’ve become Fahrenheit 451. Part of me wishes I knew all your pages and you could have written in some of mine. Instead, we allowed reality to lick our ink and consume our bindings. Climbing into the night, our fumes were the only part of us that danced, really danced. And our ashes were scattered too quickly, mostly by your last words. My sighs were the only things I could manage to send your way. With a heavy heart, I must accept it’s over. Not like my favorite Mario game with a reset, but truly irreconcilable. I don’t regret what was never officially referred to as “us.” If you do, I pray I never learn of it. Please take care and please know that you were not just a date on a blog post or a peg in a board game. I know, I know, you don’t believe me. Your frustrations are justified and retaliations maybe to some extent. Although I was never yours, we had something; you had a part of me… and I don’t really have the heart to ask for it back. So, loathe me a little less tonight and know that you matter. To quote my favorite living band, “thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories.” Almost Yours, Steph Not the "Pie" for me.... Coconutty Merignue
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